“Who will love you now, Dumbledore?”
它耗尽了我所有的感情和精力。
我看着他的眼睛，那双曾经明亮、迷人、微笑的眼睛，如今充满了痛苦和挣扎。我不禁回忆起那些甜蜜的夏日，带着激情，带着梦想，带着爱。
我记得阳光，记得影子，记得耳语，记得夜晚。
我知道我爱过他，或许，现在依然爱着。我知道我无法欺骗我的心，但或许，我可以背叛自己的灵魂。我该用 "背叛 "这个词吗？我的身体曾经容纳一切，现在却变得无比空虚。
无意义、无望、绝望。
我试图寻找出路，却被蒙蔽了双眼。
被他，被爱，被毒药……
没有他，我看不到未来。
同样，我也看不到拥有他的未来。
我将所有的感情收集起来，埋藏在心底，等候多年，直到有一天，或者某个深夜，我将它们重新全部拿了出来。我深深地沉浸于其中，细细品味，耐心地，品尝着苦涩，这是我无法抗拒的毒药，从开始，到结束。
但，这与悔恨无关，现实就是如此。
我只能继续走下去。
直到最后。
- - -
“You're all alone.”
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“Who will love you now, Dumbledore?”
- - -
It drained all my feelings and energy.
I look into his eyes, eyes that were once bright, charming, and smiling, but are now filled with pain and struggle. I can't help but remember those sweet summer days, with passion, with dreams, with love.
I remember the sunshine, the shadows, the whispers, the nights.
I know I loved him, and perhaps, still do. I know I can't cheat my heart, but perhaps, I can betray my soul. Should I use the word "betrayal"? My body, which once held everything, is now incredibly empty.
Meaningless, hopeless, and desperate.
I tried to find a way out, but I was blinded.
By him, by love, by poison...
I couldn’t see a future without him.
I couldn’t see the future with him.
I collected all my feelings, buried them in my heart, and waited for years, until one day, or some late night, I brought them all out again. I immersed myself deeply in them, savouring, patiently, the bitterness, the poison I couldn't resist, from the beginning, to the end.
It’s not about regret, it is what it is.
The only thing that I could do is go on and go on.
And go on.
Until the end.
- - -
“You’re all alone.”
“Who will love you now, Dumbledore?”（"现在谁会爱你呢，邓布利多？"）
“You're all alone.”（"你孤身一人。"）
——《神奇动物在哪里：邓布利多之谜》
ps：实际上，如果可以的话，其实很希望大家可以看看英文版，英文是先写的，然后翻译成的中文，个人觉得可能更有感觉一点，所以也一起贴上来了（安详）。
那么，这本到此就完结啦，谢谢大家的陪伴！当初开文的时候想着这本肯定没什么人看，差不多打算安详躺平当做自己写给自己，沉浸式磕磕我流GGAD，回忆回忆那个情迷意乱的夏日，顺便沉浸式学习一下关于语言与符号的哲学。没想到还有小可爱愿意陪着我，甚至还有评论，超级惊喜TvT 谢谢大家么么么啾啾！！！祝大家生活天天开心顺利！！
ps：大家如果对某些章节的理论内容感兴趣，完全可以从标题的人物入手！！！
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